boring

Getting bored with working lifestyle. waking up early sucks.. though my work starts 10am. consider very late le. haiz.... So sian... Getting emo lots oso. facing hell lots of R/S probs too. cant blog bout it. a bit too personal to talk bout it.. and.. if i did. i guess probably she will get angry and plunge the R/S to a worse state. work is coming to a standstill oso. Not getting much customer, cannot blame anyone oso. its i nv hardworking enough. But it sucks to be hardworking. When you hardworking, u irritate hell lots of pple, and they avoid u like plague. i hate pple bugging me to buy insurance, not contacting me for years.. then suddenly contact me, if got motive one. wanna sell insurance. tts y.. i refuse to do that. just announce i doing, anyone wans then find me lor. ha! but of cos.. according to my senoirs and boss, this wont works de. and my results oso quite bad :P
haiz... i tink they tink i got a mental block. Actor's ego. but then... i did what i think was right. and.. so what if i earn hell lots of money and all my friends avoiding me. theres no point in getting all those money anyway..
haiz.. seriously.. Self esteem, friendship and reputation is something that money cant buy easily. so, i think i will nv stoop too low in promoting insurance. i offer my service, pple want then come find me. if not, then.. nvm. however, cos my sales very bad. earning peanuts oso. facing little bit pressure from family, like since i degree holder. why dont get a proper job and earn 3+ thousands easily every month. But thats like boring alr, work for the sake of money. then.. wad is the meaning of life. Just money?
At least i work insurance, earn a little. i can act as and when i like when i got jobs, i can do things i find brings meaning to my life as and when i like as my job is flexible and my bosses treats me well. i got clients now too alr. just leaving my job will be so irresponsible.. though.. i noe they will assign my cousins to take over my clients. HAIZ!!! FML!!!!!!!
Schooling life rocks!